vulnerability.

I tried to. I needed to. and I found a way.

It's wrong and it shouldn't be but you have to be so stunning and amazing like that. It started out as this humongous I-don't-think-it-would-ever-be-possible kind of crush and here I am now, talking to you almost every day. How is it possible that I could be so vulnerable like this? I used to always have the upper hand in things, getting in and out relationships without even a hint of struggle yet here I am now, finding myself helpless and pretty much hopeless in trying to find myself with you.

I never thought the day would come I'd be in this kind if situation,you know? Looking from afar knowing that you can't be mine. "Please don't talk to me, I fall in love so easily" this one picture I came across the other day had stated and well yeah, if only I could say that to you, I really would.

but how can I when I feel for you so bad,so strong? how can I veer away from you knowing that there's so much about you I'm simply so attracted to. I never thought I'd find someone who'd have a greater effect than mr.-you-know-who and boom.here you are. in my life. putting me under some sort of..spell.

If I could only wish her away and have you fall for me instead, I really, really honestly with all my heart and soul, would but how can I when my morals have now taken over. Oh morals, did you have to work on me now?

but I guess it's for the best, you know? I've been single for about a month now and well, I've gotten this far, might as well go full speed ahead with it :) I haven't been single-single for quite some time and well, it isn't THAT bad and being single is underrated.

being single = being able to talk to anyone you want, anytime but when you come to prove it just like a normal Trig problem, you find a glitch to it. you have your fun and games when you're out and you get home to your bed and boom. hi you're alone again.

it's pretty much really just a mix of feelings that give you a mix of choices. it always just boils down to choice, you know? well for me, right now, I haven't decided really. All I know is that I like you, I want you but I cannot have you.

what now?